Day 1380 stress tailspin

JMJ

By whatever machinations, I was not paid this past Friday as scheduled and despite being told I was paid. Realizing this suddenly yesterday on top of all the holiday stress and complicated by my exploration of purchasing the business… My body went into a tailspin and still has not recovered.

My mind knows what to do, but my body is still suffering the consequences. It’s hard to accept and move on while wounds are still raw, painful, smarting, and throbbing everywhere.

Then again, mindfulness of this problem and witnessing it is ideal, because I can pray, process, feel, and recognize myself growing past the suffering – without numbing out with sins and addictions.

I have 1,000 bad ideas, but it is better I mindfully do 1 good idea or nothing at all and appreciate my growth through the process…

Praise God 🙏🏻✝️🛐